Cody, in addition to some of the nice, new comments you've received here, maybe you should re-read your older thread on the same topic. Those folks also went out of their way to help you feel better, and while it seems you've accepted your situation a tad more since March, please don't forget the support you get here is also to help you progress.
Here's your other thread with other similar helpful encouraging comments. Think about printing these, from both threads, and posting them somewhere close to your work area. Instead of reaching for the bottle, read the encouragement, and continue moving forward. Good luck to you, Kelly
how many years before you launched?